by Trinity Rayne

I used to ask and wonder why
Everything you said was a lie
You suffocated my dreams to die
You tried to keep me from the freedom to fly
I used to worry and wrinkle my head
Everything you instilled in me was dread
You ground my heart to make your bread
You tried to make it to where I only hung on by thread
I used to think you loved me but you only brought pain
Everything for you was a gain
You took advantage of my love in vain
I tried to see through your soul that has a stain
I used to worship you but now all I see is you're toxic trouble
Everything that was once good of ours is underneath the wrecked rubble
You hurt me repeatedly and more than double
You tried to get out of saying you didn't cause my burst bubble
You kept going until it pop
You had to delude yourself to be on top
You realistically ended up a father flop
My burst bubble is your mess you didn't want to clean up to mop
I'll be fine and I'll be okay
I'll slowly rebuild my burst bubble day by day
There's nothing more to you I'll say
You'll never win and end up alone since you won't get out of your way

by Trinity Rayne

Most people are filled with hate and rage
It is trapped inside them like a cage
Hate and rage twist loved ones up into a stranger you no longer know
The hate and rage snuff out their loving glow
All you want is the old person to come back again
You wonder will this strange person before you always remain?
Rage and hate cause people pain
It will turn someone insane
This person before you is bitter and filled with sadness
This world is filled with unending madness
Will hate and rage always linger?
I wish people can change back to themselves with a snap of a finger
I miss how things used to be
I wish things can go back and be easy
Why cant the world and people in it be full of glee?
Rage and hate will be purged if that were so and everyone can finally be free

by Trinity Rayne

I never met anyone quite as stubborn as a bull
I've came across two in my lifetime even though that was never my goal
He bucks and bucks you until you're away so far
He doesn't listen because he's bullheaded leaving scar upon scar
I get hurt repeatedly even though i kept getting back on
I got hurt by the bull and now im so far gone
I let the bull best me and hurt me on repeat
But if i don't let the bull grab me by my own horns then i can't live in defeat
I wish i knew better than to trust an animal with such hatred in his heart
As long as i find my own way then it will be easy to no longer fall apart
I came across two bulls that can no longer make me lose my fight
It's time i stand up and finish my story that i have always intended to write
The bull has tried to ruin me and throw me off to where I can't finish the race
The bull has put me down and tried to make me feel shame with such disgrace
But if I don't let the bull conquer control or destroy me from the outside in
I shall never let the bull take over me and win
All I can do now is grab the bull by the horns and walk away from the pain it leaves behind
If I stay and let the bull control me ill lose my mind
As long as I am around the bull i will always feel its wrath
All i can do is get off the bull and find my own destiny and path
But as I said before I've came across not just one bull but two
As long as I try to tame them both ill never make it through
What's worse is these bulls I loved and held dear
But these bulls made me cry and shed tear after tear
They bucked me off and made me feel shattered and broken
They always made me have words left that never mattered and unspoken
But I decided to be more bull headed and go my own way
Because pain will accumulate the more that i stay
These bulls I've climbed on I will no longer ride
I'll be more tough than them and hold onto my pride
All i have left from this is my dignity
From these bulls I can now say that I'm finally free

by Trinity Rayne

It's ok to let people who are toxic go
It's ok to get away from their cold grasp you know
It's ok to walk away and not take the fall anymore
It's ok to walk away from people who keep hurting you like before
It's ok to distant yourself from poison and not look back
It's ok to leave behind people who put you in a void so black
It's ok to heal your mind from those that confuse your troubled brain
It's ok to save your sanity and save yourself from more pain
It's ok to make these kinds of choices that are the best for you
It's ok to leave no matter if they don't want you to
It's ok to remove yourself from the drama they create that will never settle
It's ok to remove yourself from people who do nothing but interfere and meddle
It's ok to isolate yourself from those who stay in control
It's ok to not surround yourself with those who make your life empty and not full
It's ok to escape those who are negative and drain you as they leave a scar
It's ok to not give into their temptations anymore and distance yourself so far
It's ok to feel tired of their endless rollercoaster ride
It's ok to let them go and make the choice that they can't so you can be satisfied
It's ok to leave them so you can heal from the wounds that they inflict
It's ok to escape their smothering that's oh so strict
It's ok to explore your life without them find out things you never even known
It's ok to think for yourself and make choices as your own
It's ok to escape their world of hurt and words that slash at you like a blade
It's ok to run away from them since all they do is degrade
All these people do is weigh you down and leave a stinging burn
It's ok to never look back and never return
All these people say are sweet nothing's empty promises and lies
It's ok to feel ok that you wish to cut their ties
All these people are venomous and usually never change
It's ok to move forward to get on with your life and from them you estrange

by Trinity Rayne

Have you ever been trapped up in endless ruts
But you couldn't leave or get out of them because you didnt have the guts
Have you ever felt like you couldn't think with the noises in and outside of your head
Have you ever felt so trapped you were almost numb and dead
Have you ever wished that you could just escape
Have you ever wished your life was in better shape
Did u wish you had a better future but felt trapped where you are now
Did you wish you could escape your maze you're trapped in somehow
Did you feel like you were smothering like an animal in a cage
Have you ever felt emotions you wish you can rid of like sadness and rage
Have you ever felt you've been caught up in a tornado and swallowed whole
Have you always felt boring and always dull
Have you felt trapped and like things would never change
Have you felt like you werent your self for a long time and completely strange
Trapped is how i feel
Trapped for me has become real
I feel trapped and never free
I feel like I will never get to ever just be me
How do I not feel trapped anymore
Tell me how has anyone escaped their prison and walked out the door
How can you escape the curse
How do you keep from feeling worse
How do you stop feeling trapped and feeling hopeless and sad
How do you stop to keep from going mad
Will I ever escape the demons that haunt my dreams
Will i ever stop screaming my internal screams
Will i ever find my way out and find the key to an everlasting smile
I just want to stop feeling trapped so that life can once again be worth my while

by Trinity Rayne

What is it like to be a vampire that is a creature with no soul
They can exist in your everyday life draining asshole
They suck your life away slowly day by day
Making you speechless with nothing to say
Watch out for that kind of vampire
They only leave hate they inspire
They don't necessarily have to suck your blood
They drag your name through the mud
They belittle you and criticize
They leave empty promises behind and tell white lies
They fall through on everything they promised you
If you're not careful you can end up a vampire too

by Trinity Rayne

I’ll tell you a story of a fly stuck in a spiders web
The fly struggled to break free as its power began to ebb
The fly wished to fly away and escape the web it got trapped into
The fly wanted to survive and hoped to make it through
The fly wanted to fight back and get out of the web somehow
But instead the fly felt it should give in then kneel down and bow
I am that fly caught in my trap i can’t get out of
I am that fly trapped in a web of lies and no love
I became prey to the spider since there’s nothing else that I can be
All the blood and life has been sucked dry right out of me
I couldn’t escape the web no matter how much I tried
I was stuck in the web where I have died
There was no hope for the fly no matter how much it fought
Don’t become like me like the fly that was caught
I was just a meaningless pest buzzing around your head
I was a fly that served no purpose up until I was soon to be dead
Now you know the ending of the fly in the web and what it had become
I was the fly who was good for nothing like nasty scum
I was sadly in the wrong time and the wrong place
I was a vile creature full of shame and disgrace
I was the fly that was forever entangled in my web trap
That was my life and that’s a wrap

by Trinity Rayne

How did you manage to change with little to no resist
It felt almost like a story in the middle of a plot twist
I can't tell how you'll be from one moment to another
I can't tell when you'll be aloof and distant or be clingy and smother
I don't know which side of yours is the real you
Your unpredictability makes me scared of what you'll do
I dont know which side of you I should believe
I lost track of you as you began to deceive
Who is this person that's behind the mask
I'm afraid I won't know the answer even if I ask
I'm left with more questions and doubt
I don't know anymore what true love is all about
Because of you I can't tell anymore what is fake or real
When you were in my life I didn't like how you made me feel
Your emotions were just all over the place
Behind the man in the mask I feel ill never know your real face
I will never unmask who you really are
All you'll just keep doing is leaving an emotional scar
All you've managed to do is break my heart
I never knew the real you even from the start
Everything we've had is built on a lie
You've managed to fool everyone all because you're sly
It's me you have hurt the most deep
I wash my hands of you because it's my sanity I wish to keep
There will always be a man in the mask hidden underneath
I realize now that you're fake as false teeth
The man in the mask I'll never see
I can finally let him go and just be
The man in the mask will never be revealed
Because the mask he puts on is his own protective shield
His words and actions are as painful as whiplash
He's treated me disposable just like trash
The way he treated me he relished it and took pleasure
But instead of being trash I tell myself I am treasure
The man in the mask put me through hell
But in the beginning it was just like a fairytale
I got the courage and the strength to let him go
I can rewrite a fairytale ending only I will come to know
The man in the mask was like a dragon waiting to be slayed
The man in the mask wears a pokerface with his cards waiting to be played
In the end I know this to be a fact
He played me good and it was all an act
I'm better off without him trying to run the show
If he tries to come back in I'm just going to tell him no
My life is the door he may knock at but I'll never let him back in
I never want to see the man in the mask again
I'll leave him out in the cold and let him think about what he's done
The man in the mask go away you've had your fun
He may one day regret what he's ever done to me
The man in the mask had me in chains but now I'm finally broke free
The man in the mask is gone and he's had his laughter
Meanwhile I'm out here living my own happy ever after

by Trinity Rayne

I used to feel connected to you
You said you felt connected too
But was it real or was it just a dream
I can’t tell anymore so I think I’ll scream
I feel you slipping away like quick sand
I feel you slipping away through my fingers where I once held your hand
You’re slipping away and I feel i can’t hold on
You’re slipping away and I know you’re almost gone
Is there anything else more that i can say
Will you come back to me again someday
I don’t want you out of my life and slipping away
I want you back and plan to see what i can do
I want to be together our whole lives through
But was it truth or all just lies
I wish you were my biggest fan and i was still your prize
I feel you slipping away through the crack
I feel you slipping away into the void so black
You’re slipping away and i feel i can’t hold on
You’re slipping away and i know you’re almost gone
Is there anything else more that i can say
Will you come back to me again someday
I don’t want you out of my life and slipping away
Are we living in a fantasy world or reality
I wish I knew that we were meant to be
Are we playing pretend or living truthfully
Are you slipping away from me
Is it our fate to be together or shall we set each other free
Because i want to be with you for all eternity
But you’re slipping away from me
No one said relationships ever come so easily
Do you want to just leave things as they are or fix them steadily
I know youre slipping away from me
I want to do what it takes even though it may be an impossibility
I want to get off this merry go round of misery
But you’re slipping away from me
I want to unlock our happiness and find it’s key
I believe us being together is our destiny
Don’t start slipping away from me
If you leave my heart will start ripping day by day
Because you’re slipping away
All I can do is hope and pray
That you stop slipping away

by Trinity Rayne

A person who is true will be genuine and real
A person who is true will deeply feel
A person who is true will spread truth and love
A person who is true will not look down on others from above
A person who is true is caring and kind
A person who is true will care for others but also not leave themselves behind
A person who is true will have a heart of gold
A person who is true will not manipulate and give you the silent treatment so cold
A person who is true and strong will set boundaries when all they heard were lies
A person who is true will empathize
A person who is true meeting them is a pleasure
Letting go of a true person is like losing rare treasure
A person who is true is beautiful outside and in
A person who is true shines brightly from under their skin