Poetry for Processing Your Healing Journey
by Shelley Smith
Like a song your voice echoes in my mind.
The words you spoke on constant rewind.
In dreams I can't escape my hell.
The pain you caused too deeply swells.
A broken girl was left behind.
The scene was fled as she just cried.
Years have passed
The hurt remains.
In death perhaps perspective gained.
by Melody Evans
The feeling of peace
Envelopes me
As I sit on a rock
Listening to the gentle waves
Lapping against the shore
at Derwent Water
A mist covers the hills
In the distance
With a touch of sunlight
It feels mystical
Magical
So serene
I love it
My inner demons
Laid to rest
If only momentarily
To take in this moment
So natural & pure
Basking in nature
I smile
by Melody Evans
I wrote her a poem
I bared my soul
It was raw
I gave her my soul
She put it in her bag
Where it stayed
She hasn't read it
2 weeks on
Rejection again
Couldn't be bothered
To read the words of her child
It hurts
I try to empathise
But whatever way I look at it
There is no excuse
She knew what it meant to me
But still didn't make the time
She has rejected me
She has rejected my soul
by Melody Evans
Life
Why am I in it?
What do I bring to the table?
Why do I bother?
Trauma
Struggling
Broken
Hiding behind a smile
Thinking
Constant rejection
Triggering
Why me?
Answers
The journey to find peace
Will I find it
Or will it find me
by Melody Evans
Where were you mum?
Why weren't you there for me?
You were supposed to be my mum
Protected and loved
Things that should come naturally to a mum
But not to you mum
Not to you
I needed you
I needed my mum
I needed the unconditional love
That comes from being a mum
You were my mum
But you weren't a mum
Not to me
The abusive relationship you endured
The one you put us through mum
Why did you do that to us?
Why mum? Why?
The physical scars went away
But the emotional ones mum
They stayed
I'm sad mum
Sad you couldn't be a mum to me
I needed your love
A hug, an ear
Your presence
Your protection
It wasn't there mum, it wasn't there
I feel alone mum
I wish things were different
That I could call you when I'm down mum
Knowing you would be round at the drop of a hat
Wiping my tears, giving me that hug
Knowing you were there for me mum
A real mum
by Melody Evans
Don't Stop
Don't think
Keep busy
Go
Go
Go
If I stop
If I think
I would have to face my demons
Scared of my emotions
Scared I will break
Need to stay strong
No
No
No
To giving in
To being weak
I've got this
Put up a front
Put up some walls
Look people in the eye and
Smile
Smile
Smile
No one looks at you deeply
No one see's that it's a front
Life goes on
by Lauren
You're the victim But you were my first bully You told me, a kid, my nose was too big I was too pale to wear white I was "just like my dad" (in a negative way) I was too "self righteous" (I was a kid forming political opinions for the first time) I asked to go to therapy (you said, "Is it just because your friends are doing it?" Went back to shopping and it was never brought up again) You told me, "your dad tricked me when we were dating" (I was a kid who didn't need to hear that) You said I was being manipulative by calling dad "daddy" (I was a child) You didn't want me to become my own independent person, to move, to follow my dreams, to live my own life You instilled guilt and low self esteem You asked, "Do you ever reach out to him?" Referencing an ex you knew was an abuser of mine You never visited, not even when I almost died in the hospital You never truly heard me Never apologized, only sarcastically Even in adulthood But you're the victim And you'll cry about me and pretend you didn't do anything And the emotional manipulation may work on some but not those who truly know me But you're the victim And I put my foot down after spending over half my life being a doormat who ignored or gave in Not anymore I'm free I'm not a victim I'm a champion
by Bethany Lauren Birley
Head beating with rage consuming, Shadows across my sad heart looming, The storm is rumbling deep inside, I try to keep myself okay, terrified Of what I’ve seen myself do like this before, I hide from this, cowering, it cries more. I cannot run, or prevent fully what’s to come But I’ll write it down and spell out the sum, Of anger, rage and chaos that echoes deep And pray that my Medusa returns to sleep. I see my father codependent but in control, But also, cowardly, running from my soul, That seeks to challenge his narrow world view, I will not be like him but find my own way anew. I see my fist, striking out that time, my vision red, And lament at what I caused, a shadow in my head. The college door filled with art depicting harm, The chaos inside me crying and screaming in alarm, And the rush of emotions deep and out of control, Yes I know how my anger has disrupted my world. I see my father again, no adult, unable to relate, And yet for him I can only feel pity now not hate, Though I have beared the guilt of hurting him, I will not do so more, he will not affect within, Though others remember different all his deeds, If I know the truth then off his chains I am freed. You are the monster but I did not you create, You continue to run, but in here you will find no place to hide.
by Grace Villa
Sometimes it feels as if I’m drowning And it hurts to draw each breath Some days I don’t see a way through The water is deep and murky And I can’t escape its depths Healing can be painful and scary It’s so easy to just try and forget To feel numb and float my way through Distract myself with shallow pursuits And avoid my empty bed. Some days you have to feel the pain To remember what you’re working toward. Sometimes you really need that cry Or you’ll never move on; never move forward When the good times come around again Oh how sweet they’ll be! How precious and light it will feel To have survived it And fought your way free! To be able to say I did that- I made it through the darkest of times With my soul intact
by Betmae
I was born all alone Mom and dad was never home My brother beat me So I never did have peace Tell I went off to roam Then I found my lover man Won’t you take my hand We’ll be together Always forever Just like ocean and sand To my lover man You’re my everything Now you’re in my dreams Always it seems Clouds and ocean and sand Our souls intertwine Two sons yours and mine Together forever Us four together My lover man To my lover man Our boys grew to men Stand side by side My heart filled with pride Ocean, sand and tide Felt you turn away Wasn’t sure you’d stay She came to take you Said she could make you Young again If you were her lover man I said she will break you Without your sons and me to take you To the promised land Don’t leave me here I need to have you near My life is shattered My horizon in tatters I’ll raise my fist Or blow her to bits If you are her lover man By my side now you stand Look out at ocean and sand Your heart isn’t home It went out to roam Again I’m all alone Even with a lover man I feel so much shame I’ll never be the same You say it will get better But will it ever Lover man