by Trinity Rayne

As more people you thought you could trust screw you the more your heart turns to stone
Eventually you choose to stay all alone
You put up your defenses and put up a wall
Because you get tired of feeling like youre being screwed by all
So your heart turns to stone so it doesn’t happen once again
But eventually someone special comes around so you let them in
Even though the world is vicious not everyone will hurt you
You have to look out and not be around those who do
If you’ve been hurt too much be cautious and be smart
Don’t let anyone completely harden up your heart
It takes special people to be there and have them to count on
Those who slowly turn your heart to stone are the ones who should be gone
It takes special people for you to open up and be free
Those who wronged you will never make you feel glee
So don’t be bitter move on from your pain
With a heart of stone is there anything to gain?
With a heart of stone you don’t really feel at peace
But be careful who to trust so you feel more at ease
With a heart of stone you can’t really be glad
Let the right people in so you won’t be sad
The right people will come along and stick with you through thick and thin
Without a heart made completely of stone youre sure to win
Letting people in can be very well and good
The right people will come along and treat you as they should
Those who wronged you will one day get what they deserve
And you can finally muster up the courage to let people in and have the nerve
The wrongful ones turn your heart to stone and have you put up a defense
The right people will come along and things make better sense
The wrongful ones make your whole world shatter
The right people will come along and they’re the only ones who matter

by Trinity Rayne

My life has been agony since i was born
The strong girl i was once was i will always mourn
But im tired of fighting and trying to be strong
Im tired because ive been fighting hard and long
Each day i wake up with agony and despair
Because in the end no one will care
Im very tired of the endless sorrow
Im tired of another tomorrow
Im very tired and need forever rest
Because i fought my very best
As i sit here alone i want to die
And not even bother with goodbye
I was a strong girl once but she has passed
The strong side of her was never meant to last
Im so very tired and dont want to embrace another day
Im so very sorry that im not ok
Im very sorry that im away
But im very tired and i cant stay
This darkness has taken over and left me in a rut
I cant see the light even though my eyes arent shut
All i wanted to do was break free
But i couldn't break the chains that held me
I will always be worthless and tired and weak
No one can help me find the answers that i seek
By freeing myself im freeing everyone else too
And even though im gone i love all of you
But i was fighting a battle that i could never win
And i dont want to go through it over again
There was nothing medicine or therapy could have done
The despair was too much and it had won
And even though i cant take it back
My world is no longer grey and black
Just know that im fine no matter where i am
Because i was tired and didn't give a damn

by Trinity Rayne

Ive had to be strong for dozens of days and nights
Ive had to be strong and put up with what feels like a million fights
Ive had to remain strong for friends and family
Ive had to be strong because the word weak isn't in my vocabulary
There are some days that I feel like that I cant push through
But i know there's countless others who feel the same as I do
I know that Im strong and Im not the only one
We have to be strong and go on until our purpose on Earth is done
Were all fighting countless fights feel alone and there are losses we will always mourn
But if we keep going our strength will show and a warrior is born
Just be strong keep up your chin and hold your head up high
Be strong and happy even on days you feel you must cry
Were all soldiers who have some kind of battle scars
Look for strength and God when you look to the stars
Just always have pride and always stay strong
Pain and weakness go away and never last long

by Trinity Rayne

There’s been a dark time in my life more than a time or two
I thought I couldn’t survive another day just to make it through
I felt like i was drowning in an ocean of torment and sadness with no way to escape
I felt that i would always be in such bad shape
I felt like i was alone and there would always be a void
I felt like my whole world was completely destroyed
But i do know that dark times like bedtime stories eventually come to an end
And I also know darkness doesn’t last forever just like a certain trend
I also know dark things must eventually come into the light
I even know a dark future can eventually turn out alright
I believe that light is just around the corner just around the bend
I believe it is possible to not always feel bad and to be back on the mend
I know eventually a dark time and a broken heart will someday heal
I know that eventually people will no longer suffer their ordeal
I have been through dark times more times than I can count
But we’re all strong for them and the dark times won’t ever amount
Dark times can make things seem terrible and really bleak
Maybe we don’t have to let them make us small and weak
Dark times eventually have to come to pass
Maybe we can grow from them even though they’re a pain in the ass
Dark times aren’t easy but they happen every day
Maybe they can be managed so we can all be on our way
Just like the pouring rain darkness eventually has to stop
Even at rock bottom we can all eventually come out on top
We can let darkness define us and who were gonna be
But just like buried truths the darkness will one day be set free
We can let darkness overcome us and bury us in the sand
I do believe if we don’t let it the light will shine and all will be grand
We can’t turn back the clock or go back to the past
But like all times and memories darkness won’t ever last
I know that in dark times it can feel like absolute hell
I believe if we all come together as one darkness will fade and all will be well
Darkness can haunt us all and make us seem unlovable at our worst
I believe in order to overcome it we must love ourselves first
To be in darkness is a struggle and we hate it for many reasons
I believe the darkness will change to light
just like the changing of our four seasons
The important thing is not to give up and to not give in
I believe if we feel strong we can fight the dark and win
With that kind of attitude and outlook things will turn around
With those kind of feelings peace will be found
Dark times are our obstacles that can be beat
Our trials and tribulations won’t keep us down in defeat
With dark and light there’s two paths that we can take
I believe if we don’t let the dark take over then we will all be hard to break

by Trinity Rayne

Do you ever feel like a gun that is loaded with feelings waiting to come out
Do you ever feel so loaded with unsaid things so much so you want to shout
Your feelings and words are like bullets flying at high speed that could pierce someone's heart
And once all is said and done you can't take it all back and then restart
But for the most part we keep our safety on
We don't want to hurt our loved ones and lose them until they're gone
Sometimes we decide that we can't just stay loaded
Our triggers get pulled and then we're pressured and goaded
Those who may be in the wrong place at the wrong time we may not mean to hurt
Then we may kill them slowly and watch them as they spirt
Those we love we may hurt badly and they end up in our crossfire
Then we end up hurting those that we most admire
Our words are like bullets that fly at high speed
Then we end up hurting those in our life we absolutely need
That's why our feelings just like loaded guns sometimes need to be put away
Those we truly love we want to see again and want them around to stay
Sometimes we keep our feelings to ourselves and stay like a loaded gun
We don't want to lose people we hold dear because going through loss is no fun
We stay like loaded guns to avoid mistakes we think we easily could have made
Because once words and bullets fly those on the other side their memories will never fade
We must be careful and not aim at those we really treasure
Because words and bullets can cause feelings of loss and displeasure
For the most part we stay a loaded gun and not cause others pain
We want to be careful so much so that we don't leave a stain
We just have to be careful at where to point and aim
Because like loaded guns we can be dangerous if we're toyed with in a mind game
Just like loaded guns we can both hurt those we love but we can also defend and protect
We stand up kill and take a bullet for those that we love and with who we connect

by Trinity Rayne

How do you rule your life's kingdom wearing your crown so proud
How do you lead and make a difference with words so loud
How do you rule with your crown without your kingdom falling and crumbling
How do you stay standing without stalling and stumbling
How do you keep your crown without fail
How do you keep ruling and prevail
How do you remain strong with your crown on your head
How do you rule without fear and dread
How do you get through with your crown intact
I want to know as a matter of fact
How do you just keep pressing on
Your crown never seems to go missing and gone
How do you sit proudly on your throne
How does your crown not budge it's almost like stone
It's good that your crown has stayed
It seems in your life you have it made
Keep ruling bravely with no shyness
All hail your royal highness
Don't give up your crown so easily
Keep on ruling your majesty

by Trinity Rayne

Dragonfly Dragonfly struggling to be free
Let me help you and let yourself trust me
Dragonfly Dragonfly I'm just like you
Afraid to trust others and not knowing what to do
Dragonfly Dragonfly trapped and slowly unable to breathe with no air
I know your pain let me show you i care
Dragonfly Dragonfly let me help you fly away
I can't trust easily either because of things people say
Dragonfly Dragonfly I don't want you to die
So let me help you be free to fly away in the sky
Dragonfly Dragonfly I also know fear
I know how you feel but I'm right here
Dragonfly Dragonfly I don't intend to cause you pain
But if you don't let me help you then you'll have nothing to gain
Dragonfly Dragonfly spread your wings fly back to where you belong
I need to trust others like you did me and not be so headstrong
Dragonfly Dragonfly thank you for trusting me
I wish I can be like you happy and now free

by Trinity Rayne

I know we all think these words is there anyone out there to catch me as i fall
Is there anyone out there to catch me as i crumble after standing so tall
I just want people to catch me and for once someone who will have my back
I just want people to catch me instead of giving me a surprise attack
I guess it's too much to ask for to want others to protect my name
People leave and abandon because to them it's all a game
It's a sad reality no one sticks together like they once done
People quickly judge others as they bad mouth and shun
I want others to catch me just as i catch them
I want equal love and friendship as precious as a gem
Cant we all catch each other and lift each other up
Can't we all catch each other and stop each other from breaking like someone's special coffee cup
Let's all catch one another like when someone plays ball
Let's catch each other and work together one and all
Let's understand others and listen with open ears
Let's be supportive of others and stick together over the years
This world will be better if we learn to catch others instead of throw
When we catch others as they fall love and trust will grow
Let's all lean on each other and provide support
Accept others without any change and distort
If only everyone can be an equal match
We can be but all we have to do is hold out a helping hand and catch

by Trinity Rayne

I don't want to stay stuck in your game that you had me play
It's not right only you have your way
I don't want to play in your game if you're not playing fair
It's not right that you're heartless and you don't seem to care
I don't want to play your game where you can't be beat
It's not right you are too stubborn to admit defeat
I'm tired of your game that you play with my mind
I'm forfeiting and leaving you behind
I'm not playing your game and following your rules
I hate how you treat everyone and use them like tools
Everyone will eventually tire of your game
They won't like you or see how you became
I don't want to keep playing your game only to stay your slave
I stopped playing because there's something inside me I needed to save
I stopped playing your game so don't expect me to come back
I don't play by the rules of a crazy maniac
Even though i no longer play your game i feel im a winner
You always stay the same playing your game as a sinner

by Trinity Rayne

Are there days you feel you're hanging on by thread
Are there days on the inside you feel dead
Are there days you feel you cant keep swinging like Tarzan vine to vine
Are there days you dont feel fine
Are there days you want back and mourn
Are there days that you are torn
There are days that may feel unbearable but good will come out on the other side
Hone your strength on those days and stay on the ride
On your days filled with pain there can be beauty found within it
Don't dare give in and submit
Yes there are days filled with darkness where you feel swallowed whole
You are worth the fight for yourself because you play an important role
One day you may look back on it all and see it as an awful phase
You can make it through if you believe you can throughout the rest of your days