Tired

by Trinity Rayne

My life has been agony since i was born
The strong girl i was once was i will always mourn
But im tired of fighting and trying to be strong
Im tired because ive been fighting hard and long
Each day i wake up with agony and despair
Because in the end no one will care
Im very tired of the endless sorrow
Im tired of another tomorrow
Im very tired and need forever rest
Because i fought my very best
As i sit here alone i want to die
And not even bother with goodbye
I was a strong girl once but she has passed
The strong side of her was never meant to last
Im so very tired and dont want to embrace another day
Im so very sorry that im not ok
Im very sorry that im away
But im very tired and i cant stay
This darkness has taken over and left me in a rut
I cant see the light even though my eyes arent shut
All i wanted to do was break free
But i couldn't break the chains that held me
I will always be worthless and tired and weak
No one can help me find the answers that i seek
By freeing myself im freeing everyone else too
And even though im gone i love all of you
But i was fighting a battle that i could never win
And i dont want to go through it over again
There was nothing medicine or therapy could have done
The despair was too much and it had won
And even though i cant take it back
My world is no longer grey and black
Just know that im fine no matter where i am
Because i was tired and didn't give a damn