by JenniferD
I never left you I was there standing by the curb side always waiting, always wanting To be accepted, to maybe for once be good enough ... to be loved I never left you, I gave as much as my heart could give, hurt as much as I could handle Drew from a parched well, damp only from tears knowing that no matter what ever I did... it would never be enough I never left you Even when Knowing that I would never have the right to any place in your heart , A void I had no right to fill , left vacant by that perfect daughter that wasn’t me I never left you At the operating theatres, at the Doctors, the cashiers, the ATMs. the shops Installments for love or debts of duty? But the price of approval, acceptance, kindness, and love has now become far too high I never left you Craving kindness, comfort, reassurance, respect that never came I settled for the hurt as your acknowledgement of my existence in your life I never left you And I never will But I will no longer try and compensate for the disappointment of not being the one Accepting that I would never deserve that place in your heart I will not leave you but I will never again leave myself open to hurt and disappointment and anger or bitterness I pray for the patience, the acceptance and for the strength to walk the final journey .. in Peace I will be there as it is my duty, but I will never ever leave Me again
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