The Void

by Trinity Rayne

Have you felt emptiness when you saw the dark gaping hole
Have you felt grief hit you and fill up your soul
There it was up there on the ultrasound screen
Before you unfolding was a heartbreaking scene
There it was what a tragic waste
The dream to be parents was so close you could almost taste
There it was staring back at you an empty sac
There was no life in it only pitch black
There it was in your view in plain sight
The one you both loved but never met had lost the fight
This was a test put on your marriage
Sometimes it's the ugly reality of miscarriage
There it was in that moment hope was destroyed
There it was the dreaded void
A few months later another baby was bred
But it can never replace the one you had that was dead
Even though seeing that one was different from the last
It could never erase the image of the past
It was hard to enjoy and revel in the new life that was to come
It was easier to feel scared and glum
It's difficult to get past feeling paranoid
Once you see and witness the void
But eventually after the void there's a beautiful rainbow with a pot of gold
New life around the corner waiting for you to hold
The void will always be there but you both have an angel looking down up above
New life is near so treasure it dear with your love

I'm sorry if this poem triggers anyone it's one I decided to write on my experience with a miscarriage years ago I know it's gloomy and kind of gruesome but I just wanted everyone who has experienced one to know they aren't alone and it's ok to grieve as long as you need to there's not a day that goes by that I don't wonder about what might have been but there's also hope after a loss and as devastating as it is there's always something beautiful on the horizon